So I had a moment at a party with a person who made me feel less weird for an hour or two (Thanks a bunch V). Even though most of it was probably just in my head it made me set the bar a bit higher for what I want to feel with other people. The aftermath is a strange mix of sadness, panic and maybe a touch of hope. All I know is that I don’t want to mask as much anymore and I want to feel loved for who I am. Knowing myself I will learn, grow and come out on top, but for now I want to sit with these emotions before I put myself back together stronger again.

I’m gonna fuck shit up (in the best possible way) while being authentic and in touch with my feelings. That’s whats up.